Return of 43things
Alright, a few weeks ago I wrote about 43things.com and even listed my top 5. I would have to say that the top of that list is definitely procrastination. Procrastination is definitely a huge issue for me. I find so many ways to just waste time and avoid getting things done. And eventually a list of 3 things quickly adds up to a list of 25 things that I need to either do, start (as there are some projects), or finish (stuff i started but have not yet completed). I think that it’s mostly fear.
There are some items on my 43 things list that are quite risky and may cause eyebrows to raise and heads to turn. So, that may be one of the reasons why I am a bit leery of getting the ball rolling. But then I think, who the hell cares what people think, I am going to do what ever makes me happy and whatever makes me feel good. I don’t want people to think they can break me.
Other items on my list are causing fear in a sense of “I might fail’. But I have started to realize that I’d rather try it out and fail than to live and regret for not trying and start thinking about the “what-ifs”. What if I succeeded? And they are things that I am super excited about and have been thinking about doing for the past three years (if that isn’t procrastination then I don’t know what is). The more I think about it, the more I can’t believe I have been wanting to do some of this stuff for the past three years and have not done it yet—fear. I don’t know what wrong with me. It’s soooo weird. It’s something I want so bad. But the fear has grab hold of me and won’t let go. I am trying to remove myself from it’s grasp but once I get an arm or leg free, it takes hold of me again.
So, I have decided to make a pact to myself….starting this Sunday, I need to get the ball rolling. With baby steps and see how it works. Of course I will keep updates on MYQUEENDOM.
Procrastination is a bitch man. But I am reading this book called The Procrastinators Handbook by Rita Emmett. I started reading it about a week ago. This book has been very helpful on the road to my recovery…lol. But of course I haven’t picked up the book since I finished reading chapter 2 (one week ago, lol). But I made a promise to read at least one chapter a day until I finish it. But from what I have read so far it’s pretty much hitting every nail on my head. Making me open my eyes a bit wider.
Procrastination is not doing me any good. In fact the more I think about it, the more I realize I am only hurting myself and limiting myself. So now that I have figured out that the root of my procrastination stems from fear, it is now time to do something about it. I am making a vow to myself (that I will post tomorrow). It is going to list all of the projects I want to start and finish as well as little tasks/errands I need to do. I may even include a list of my 101 things (this is different from 43things).
The 101 things is an assignment from The Procrastinators Handbook. For me this list is comprised of both short term tasks (oil change, clean car, etc) and long term goals (go back to school). On the other hand, www.43things.com consists of just my long-term goals that I want to accomplish. And procrastination is on both lists.
And the more I write about this, the more I think that once I can accomplish this one goal, just about everything else should fall into place. Everything I want to do is linked to procrastination and fear.
I just want to be happy with who I am at this point in time. I want to know that I have lived life with no regrets. But I have regrets, too many to count; but they all stem from–PROCRASTINATION. So, here and now I embark on the road towards my recovery from procrastination, towards being comfortable in my own skin, and towards being happy….
